You know what? I often just forget that I need Jesus. It's common, but it's terrible. I want to be reminded often, but at the same time I'd rather just remain ignorant- because the reminder often takes the form of my sin being flung in my face. To know my need for Jesus often takes getting to know myself; that's something that can be so unpleasant.

The hardest prayer for me to pray, but the most rewarding, has always been for God to reveal "any unright way within me." But because it is perpetually true that I need Jesus, I want that truth to be perpetually before me, and I want my salvation from my sin to be always a joyful thing.

I hate to see people shrouded with this unshakeable shame over who they are, their secret selves... how easy it is to just get trapped there. Ugh.

Maybe I'll expand some other time, but I need to finish assignments and sleep because the morning brings another 12 hr shift in hospital.

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