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5月23日 NonsenseSo recently I've been accused by a dear friend of mine of being a non-blogger. At first I wanted to be defensive and come up with excuses for having stayed away from this form of thought-purging or, if you'd prefer, sharing. I think what I ended up saying was that I was too busy reading and learning to spend time writing thoughts here. True as this might be, hearing my answer to this question gave rise to further questions: why does it bug me when I feel I have nothing of true depth or relevance to share here? Why does it irk me whenever I read that the last time I have written is more than 3 or so weeks ago? I think the answer is that I am by nature a bit of a selfish creature that wants to uphold this image of my blog being so engrossing and captivating that my friends would creep into the corners of my journal and soak up any bit of information or emotion that reveals a further piece of myself. I really shouldn't be this self-absorbed. So my favourite times are when I can get over myself and write aimlessly, less concerned with what others might think of myself, and more concerned that I experience the occasional growth that would periodically spur me to rave or rage through my writings here or elsewhere. If I post fluff once in a while, so be it. All of that being said, I actually have a few thoughts to share (wow!): - I read this delightful article about a man who was raised Hindu, educated among Muslims, and found Christ in adulthood. He is a businessman who has run for mayor of London, and yet he remains quite humble and satisfied to have influence in a more indirect manor. His heart is for the hopeless, the homeless, and the penniless. Rather than focusing on this man's merits, I'd rather discuss shortly his point of view on Christ. He came to understand Christ as an eternal guru who paid his karmic debt; reading along, it became clear that he did not negate any truths about my Saviour, but instead understood him in a different cultural light. It was humbling to read his account of his first interactions within a North American Christian church, and I am reminded that it is important to accept each believer, being sensitive to their values and willing to learn from a fresh perspective. [Article here] - Sometimes you just don't regret stupid ideas. My recent example: careening down the Pembina river in a Walmart-quality rubber raft when it's cold enough out to hail briefly during the post-rafting picnic. - A week ago I was at Bonanza at the North end. So the waitress takes everyone's orders for drinks and then asks politely how old the little girl is at the end of the table. Ahem. That little girl was 21.5 years old, thank you very much . . . - Along those lines, I'm developing a slight fear that I will forever look 15 until I wake up one day and look 40. Is it so wrong to want to look like a sexy 20-something for a little while? - I think I have just under 10 books "on the go" right now. Now I know why I've never taken this approach to reading before. Every time I pick one up, I have to read back almost a chapter to remember what's going on. Gah. - Two weeks until I'm back in the Bay for Cheryl's wedding! I don't know when it'll stop being slightly strange watching my high school and college friends marry and have children. Maybe one day I'll recall that I had previously felt that young, and it will make me feel old. Hmmm. It'll also be strange being in a town that I might not visit ever again, depending on my father's job status. - I really wish I didn't like facebook. That is all. Listening to: "Something Like Laughter" Five Iron Frenzy Wearing: Jeans, white ae hoodie, black vest, and ealier today, mittens *note the date!* Thinking about: Bed, and how I wish there was less resistance and spring to my keyboard keys, so that I could type much more quickly. Praying for: The best job for Dad, and that he won't be bored out of his mind during the evenings in Lloydminister. 5月16日 Float onSo I think the whole being vulnerable and honest thing is an excellent idea, but those thoughts might not be best on the world wide web. Instead, some [very] surface thoughts from life lately: - It is good to see someone return from a situation that is unhealthy and welcome the open arms of friends. It's good to have the opportunity to practise being that very type of friend. - Our basement flooded, and I have become suddenly thankful for both roommates that are slow to anger, and for landlords that are quick to act. Not to mention a roof over my head in face of the rising amount of working homeless, rising rent across the city, and a decrease in available places to rent. - It's easy to ignore what you can't see until you stare in its ugly face. This is applicable to a lot more than our little unwelcome house guest which I think I will name Edwardo (a mouse). I'll spare you the analogy, but the little guy was good for something I guess. Now that he's served his purpose, though, I would kindly like him to skedaddle or die. - I concur with my good friend Matt when he says that it is good to celebrate with those who celebrate and mourn with those who mourn. Being largely self-centred on bad days (heck, maybe even on the best of days), it'd be easy to try to turn others' happy moments or sad moments into something about me. Instead, congratulations to all my newly engaged friends. - Apparently "google" is now officially recognized as a verb. How powerful we masses can be. |
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